我真的累了...

原本今天应该是我很快乐的一天
但,我真的很累了...
二十一年的服事
尽我所能
对神的小忠心(按我的良心)
对支持我的朋友有交待
我真的尽我所能的做了我该做的
但,我真的累了...
为了什么而"觉得"累了???
因为"觉得"应该最相信我的人
因为"觉得"应该最信任我的人
让我"觉得"很不被相信
让我"觉得"很不被信任
我真的累了...
为什么要被人耍呢???
为什么可以忘了自己说过的话
为什么可以忘了自己答应过的事
而...让我"变成"
没得到"允许"就私自做决定的人
我真的累了...

I got my life partner!!!

I got my life partner!!!

Oh dont feel shock ya, it's not me la...haha...

On Friday night 1 of my graduated disciple sms me and told me he found his life partner and wanted me to happy with him. Ya sure i was so happy when i know this news.

But what i really feel happy was... my UTM disciples, even they graduated for years but when they come to the decision of life partner they will still call or sms me and asked for my opinion or to let me know what is their decision. They treat me as their Big Sister and this make me so blessed to have them in my ministry before.

That's also make me think back the time we serve the Lord together in UTM, we went tru difficulty, we went tru happy time and also sad time together but today we are separated in difference place yet we are still very close in our heart. we are just a call away.

To all my disciples, you all are my treasure in Christ. Your sms or call will make my day!!! When i received your sms or call, i really feel so touch and will happy for my whole day, even when i feel so tire, so down or even feel of leaving the ministry but your call or sms will help me recall our God grace to me and that press me on to serve Him more faithfully.

Thank you so much for given/giving me a chance to serve with you during the time in UTM. If you are still in UTM, then pls help me to serve you better and let's do it together to win 1 more soul for the Lord and for those who are working now,pls let me pray for you so that you will not feel lonely in serving the Lord in your working place, may you also bring 1 more soul for the Lord too!

I missed you all...

Take care...

Haizzzzzzzzz!!!

Am back but away again to till 27th ya. Sorry cos very tire and also just came back for 3 days and going to campus till no time to rest so dint update my blog.

Sometime just feel so lousy, when i came back to my campus and start to see things that i involve in, why do i need to do so hard yet the result came out soooooooooooooooooo slow??? when you think of helping in some way and you are trying your very best to do it BUT person who need to really take care don't see it urgent, then how will you feel? you try to arrange this and that for them but they just don't see it that way, haha... busybody???

When i came back from Sabah, I really start to think more. How many things that we can really take control of? everything is under control by our God, He knows what is going on and He allowed things to happen, so what we can do is just humble and wait before Him.

Haizzzzz... i am very tire now... wil share with you more when i come back ok? Take care my dear Fren.

Wow!!!

Hello my fren, I am still out station... Now using student's laptop to update you some news.

I am very thankful to God that He shows me what we think is impossible but in Him everything is possible. Till now at 14/09/08 11:10pm, 3 mover in this campus committed their life to join us as CLC members. They prayed to received Christ at the time i challenge them to pray and at the same time i challenge them to commit their time with CLC and they committed!!! They pray with us and also write down the date of receiving Christ. Wow 3 mover leh... How great is our God!!!

1 of our student leader bring a 2nd year Girl to Christ then the girl bring 1 of her course mate to church and today he prayed to be children of God, the other student bring her BF to church and today when i challenge him to received Christ he did. 4 of them are course mate ah!!!

I am so very tired (cos no time to rest.) but i am so happy that i can involve in these students life. They are so willing to take up the responsibility even they don't have a staff with them. I am so touch by their love towards their campus. They told me its ok that we temporally don't hv staff, we will stand firm at this critical time to give our best to the Lord.

Oh my dear fren, pls join me to give thanks for the Lord for these students. If you know who they are, pls send them sms or even a call to give them your encouragement.

Do pray for me too cos i still need to help them do some arrangement before i go back. Still many more problems to settle and many decision need to be done. I need your prayer support so much.

Take Care ya...

Hello my fren, i will be going out station from 10-17 Sept for ministry. I will not be able to update my blog cos will not bring my "BIG" laptop with me... haha...

Pray for me as i visit students and will be a blessing to them. U can still reach me by calling or sms me ya. U take care and i will too...haha...

Thanks for reminding me...

Thank You Lord, this boy experience Your love to him again and now he know that he should bring his girl fren to You. He went back to his college on Friday morning to enroll and clean his room after 2 days of scaring experienced at home.

From this special case, i really learn a lesson from it, do we really want to do what we want till God show His anger on us then only we sit down and listen? Or should we do what He wants us to do so that we can experienced His greatest love on us? haha... actually God loves us so much but we always break His heart by doing what He don't like, talk what He don't like, act what He don't like and many many more... haiz...why????????? Childish right????

I know you feel so hurt...

oh my God, how can a father said to his son

" in the name of Jesus, u go and die now!"?

Early in the morning i received a call and someone told me his father ask him to go and die now.

After clarify only found out that just bcos of a very very small matter,

the father shout at the son on phone who study in the college.

The son feel so hopeless and scared cos he is study so hard just wish to get good result

to satisfy his father and became a very quiet boy,

he was so stress and under pressure but...

suddenly the father said his attitude got problems

cos he now don't talk much...

haiz...what do you think my fren? what i can do to help this boy?

I just saw him just 2 days ago and i found that he is more matured

and more understanding then 1/2 year ago,

i still talk to his mother that this boy become very nice guy edi,

but today things seems to change just becos the father in no reason

get mad then this boy become his father's "chu4 qi4 tong3".

This boy is going to his final year and today went back to his college to do his enrollment

but the father stop the payment and told him go and die so don't have to study anymore.

A boy in his age of 20 facing such difficulty and looking for my help,

i cried! He keep asking me to help him,

he dare not go home cos the father wants him to go back and

wanted to punish him.

On the phone i told him,

i will pray for him and i told him

when man cannot do anything our Lord will start to do something.

I asked him to pray to the Lord too and he did,

he still very scared and when he was on his way back

to his home town,

he keep calling me to go back with him cos he dare not meet

his father who are still very very mad.

Finally he reached home without me,

the father dint scold him but just told him to stop studying... ... ...

Now when i am writing this blog i am still talking with him

on phone on and off.

Pls pray for me for wisdom to help both he and his father.

I feel so headache liao...

Now the boy call me and said he thank God

cos the Lord listen to his prayer

that the father dint slap on him nor hit him also dint scold him.

Now he believe the Lord loves him.

Praise the Lord with me la,

finally the boy realize that God still with him and can still lay on HIM.

Thank you Lord!