My hair turn gray!!!

My hair turn gray in 2 months time...

That day when i went PJ for our CD's planning meeting,

some of my staff saw my hair and feel so shock!!!!

What happen to you Callie???

Why your hair turn gray but when we see you in June it's still black???

What happen to you???

don't think too much leh... don't worried so much la...

take your leave la... go for your personal retreat la...

and many many more from my staff,

Thank you is all i mean to say to you all.

I know I should not think too much, should not worried,

must learn to relax myself,

but fren,

when you are facing problems that keep making you so depress what will you do?

You really don't think? Never worried? Feel so relax?

Some of you may know what i' saying here, so pls pray fr me,

but whose who don't know what happen then pls pray for God mercy unto me.

I really need more grace!!!

Anybody wants to sponsor me to do coloring?

I don't want cheap cheap de leh...haha...

Pray for me la

I am in the very stress situation now.

Should I be more selfish?

so that I don't have to spend so much time on ppl that never appreciate me?

Should I be more merciful to ppl who never appreciate me?

Not worth for me to cried for ppl who don't care right?

Then how? What should I do?

Pray!!!

Get "Nothing" in return!!!

I will be going to PJ for meeting this weekend... don't know if i can write something on blog during my meeting there.

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I am actually facing a problem of how to encourage a full-time worker when she/he said to me " i will lost vision in serving the Lord when i get "nothing" in return from the people i serve with". What is actually "nothing"? When i read William's blog that he mention about when his youngest girl said to him "daddy, careful when driving." he feel so "man zhu"... ya, this is what i think so, when my student said to me " Callie Jie, must take care ya." ," Callie Jie, good nite and have a good rest." or even " Callie Jie, don't worried about us, we will give our best to serve the Lord." wow, Will this satisfied you? YES I DO!!!. Then how if you don't? What is the THING that you think is paying in return leh? Times? Gifts? or what?

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Enter my 22nd years of serving the Lord, I'm so happy that our Lord still give me the opportunity to serve HIM with MCCC. He gave me time to grow... Facing lotta challenging things that make me a better person (this is what i think)! Tears and hurts that makes me grow stronger each time.Its a blessing from Him to have the challenging things in life... agree??? haha... if no challenge then life will be very boring de leh... BUT i know some how we are too weak to face the challenge that TOO BIG to us, so we need to ask God for mercy to over come each one of it.

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If you can help me in answering the question on top pls help me so that i can encourage the person who need the answer ok? thanks ya... take care and God blessed you!!!

No updates...

No update cos very tire and not feeling so well. Not sick but just feeling not so well...haha... How about you? Convo is coming so soon, we'll have 2 disciple this time to received UTM-CLC's flower oh...haha... It's Kimi & YiYi!!! YiYi is now working in Singapore and Kimi is working at his home town KL. I feel sorry cos all our juniors will not be in the campus during this convo,haiz... So maybe only 2 "lao you tiao" will go lo,yes, its me and CV lo..haha...

Updates... Now i have 3 seniors and 5 juniors working closely with us, 3 more on the way, still challenging them. All 5 of them so committed to be a mover and also on the way towards SMD. We went witnessing on every Tuesday, then we have our own time of follow-up group. Jess follow-up Cindy and Xiao Xu, Ying Jie follow-up Shally and Yi Wen will start follow-up Sharon and maybe stella too, i'm praying that Elvin will also start follow-up Shye Luing soon. Pray for them cos they oredi committed the time to the Lord but i really pray for them that our God give them wisdom in their study to glorify Him too. Pls join me to pray for them and also pray for me as i lead them to the way of SMD, its not an easy way but i believe our God will show me the best way to lead this special team.

Oh ya, when you visit my blog, can you leave a note so that i now you were here to pray for me. Thanks.

so sorry...

Haiz... Talk also bo yong... just wanted to release some "meng qi" ma... human memang macam ini kua... when don't know where to turn to then sure need to find some way out de ma... so oh, i pula pula write on my own blog la... haha... i takut i will "khi xiao" soon lo if i dint release out...

today i went in to campus at 7am to look for 2 students that they r oredi Christian but they are not sure about how to pray and devotion so i do it with them this morning and thank God we have wonderful time together. tonight i actually plan to stay with a student but after dinner, she was invited by her fren to watch the opening of Olympic so i came back early. then my fren came back and complain about her day, she told me the students in her school went in to 2 class room that no people inside and start to tear down the fans, pull down the black board and this and that... then she feel so lousy today... haha... then i asked her what is life??? then both of us laugh! we actually facing problems everyday but we have Christ that understand us and He will lead us... sometime we will received calls, sms that we don't like to listen to or read but that's life, we still have to face it and all these things will help us grow in Him. so i tell myself, say it when u need to say it out, do it when u need to do... BUT try to do it in the way that people can "accept" la, but some how... sorry lah... i am still a normal person that easily done something wrong loh... IF u think i hurt u, my apology to you, i am very sorry, pls forgive me and remind me to be a better person ok?! THANKS ya... Jesus Loves you...

What to do?

I was planed to have our Part 1 and 2 training on this coming 1 week break but tonight when i start my follow up with my disciples and wanted to arrange time with them, they gave me the answer almost break my heart again... I tot they oredi so confirm to put CLC in their 1st priority but 4 of them NO 1 is free... 2 got church camp but that was the arrangement last year before they make their commitment to CLC, so it's ok, then 1 said mother will come visit her so have to go KL with mother but after mother went back then still want to stay there to have fun with course mate, then the only 1 who will give me hope told me that she will be going to Sarawak!!! Some time I really don't know what to say lo, when we start so hard to challenge students to commit their time to serve but some how because of the relationship that's make us feel so lost and disappointed. I was trying so hard to challenge students who are always thinking of going back home to give priority to serve in UTM yet those who have the same vision with me "forgot" the priority. What else can I said? Not angry but just confused... haha...I understand that students can still have their own planning for their holidays and I also told them to let me know and plan with me if they have any plan in mind but yet they "forgot"!

Pls pray for me, I need God's wisdom to lead this bath of student leaders in UTM. I really hope that they will become the leader that God want them to be.

Gospel nite

Tonight 3 junior, 2 senior n Me, went witnessing in Campus from 8pm-9:30pm. God gave us 4 students that willing to hear the complete Gospel. Why so hard to touch people's heart? We prayed so hard that someone will come to Christ every time me and my disciples shared with them but till now still cant see good result. But we really enjoy the time together, we know that 6 of us are getting closer in our relationship. We shared about what problems we faced and we jokes and we pray and we end our time with happiness.

I went in since morning after staff Fast & Prayer time, i shared with 5 students and all of them turn me down too. But dont worried about me cos i believe i will get the best one that our God prepared for me soon.

How i spend my Birthday!?

I went in to campus early at 8am on my birthday 1st Aug. I prayed to God to give me the 1st students I shared with to become a christian and will be my SMD but NO! Then I keep looking for students and shared cos I really wish to have a special gift from God...but till today at 4:30pm, I have shared with 14 students and non of them received Christ... oh i need encouragement liao!!! I really don't know what He wants me to learn from this BUT I do believe there must be a lesson for me to learn. Tell me if you know ok?

On my birthday from 12am til 11:59pm, I received 67sms, a cake, a big tin of milo, 1 small cup of jelly, a birthday song sang by Yok Wong's kids and RM80 for my birthday. Great? haha...

But some how I still feel so down maybe bcos I'm getting older kua... "Li4 Bu4 Cong2 Xin1"... Maybe it's time for me to take a long break oh, what do you think? haha...SMD, SMD and SMD again...